I Wish I was a Runner

It is official that I am doing another Triathlon on August 13th. As much as I loved my last triathlon I am very hesitant about doing this one. The reason being is that I don't really have a lot of time to train. I leave in two weeks for Europe for about a month and I wont be doing much training there. Then when I get back I only have July and then a few weeks in August, don't forget that I am getting married in the middle of all of this to. It is going to be a very interesting experience, but I just keep telling myself "I can do hard things" and then I feel a little better.

Once it was decided that Nathan and I were going to do this triathlon (actually Nathan is doing the half iron man, Crazy) we jumped into training mode. Monday morning I began running. I am not a runner at all. It's not that I don't enjoy running, because when I don't feel like dying I really like it. Sometimes I crave running, this does not make me a runner though. Today for instance I only went 2 1/2 miles not very far for many people. However, my body was saying "What are you doing? Are you crazy? Why do you think this is good for me?" As my body thought those things I kept saying to myself "I love this, I love running, running is my favorite thing ever, just think how nice you are going to look in your wedding dress." Most of these thought were me lying to myself, besides me looking good in my dress.

Today was only day 2 in my training and of course it is bound to get better. I am not a runner yet, but I will one day become one. My goal is to one day be able to call myself a RUNNER! Today is not that day though.

Just Thinking

Here are just a few thoughts that have come along with planning my wedding:

1. It seems crazy that I (well my parents) are spending a good chunk of money on just one day. People keep telling me that I should have whatever I want just because it is "MY DAY." Technically it is Nathans and my day. The truth is that I just really want to please people and make sure everybody has a fun time. Unfortunately, that costs money.

2. I discovered that I really like trying on wedding dresses! I was lucky enough to find the perfect dress for me at the first place I went dress shopping. However, secretly I really just want to go and try on dress after dress because I love feeling like a princess.

3. I have a hard time making decisions.

4. I think I might regret buying super expensive, orange 4 in. heels, but I just couldn't resist. I really love high heels but I have never worn such high heels before. It will be an adventure for sure!

5. The only thing that makes me nervous about my wedding is that all the attention will be on me and Nathan. Sometimes I don't like being the center of attention. Everyone is just watching you all the time. Especially that moment when you walk out of the temple and everyone cheers and expects you to kiss and be all cutesy. Let's be honest, this moment is always a tad awkward for every person there.

6. This is going to sound really selfish but one thing that I am super, super, super excited for is all the presents that Nathan and I are going to get. I love getting gifts!

7. The greatest thing about this whole wedding is that I get to sealed to Nathan. I feel so blessed that I have him in my life and I can't wait to be married to him!